56.

Oh God! Well look at you now!


http://www.beonlineb.com/

55.

it's 4:35am and i have been at work for 13 hours now. i'm not bothered by it though. it's because i know i'm not missing out on anything. i started digging online and thinking about all of these bands i listened to regularly. saetia. kite flying society. orchid. the kodan armada. pg.99. city of caterpillar. etc. etc.

it has been years since i heard some of that and i don't think it was a teen angst thing. i still feel the same about it. i still appreciate it.

54.

i knew it the moment i wrote that poem for you. i think that's why i am so disappointed.

53.

"To abandon curiousity in all personalities, good or bad, is to give up hope in humanity."

-Peter Sarsgaard

52.

Modest Mouse, I will always love you. you remind me of warm Florida nights. cool breezes coming from rolled down car windows. quality time with friends that became family. being alone and being fine.

i miss my love and i wish him well. i'm sure his days are long and hard. all i want is the next 350 days to move along so i can be with him more times than not.

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50.

all of these purchased online at f21. i'm hoping they are just as cute in person.

49.

my freaking eating habits are awful. i wish i knew how to cook and take care of myself properly. every time i see a slamming body i think "oh yeah, you're supposed to get in shape." and then i find another bad thing to consume.

48.

everything is going to be just awful when we're around.

47.

on my drive home from work tonight i played the blood brothers and remembered how cool it was to see them live at the social in orlando. even better to get invited for the following day's show in Ybor City and being on the guest list. as just some random teenager and friends.

46.

totally in love and inspired to make the best out of each and every home we rent or own. which raises the question of what do i really want to go to school for?

45.

i also bought pepper spray disguised as a pen. i've been meaning to buy it for a while, so there it is. i'm just hoping i never accidently spray myself.

44.

pics taken today from a flea market in Philly and an amish market in New Jersey.

43.

okay now it is 99.9% official that i am living in Jacksonville FL with my love from June01-Sep01. i am completely excited and ready for a little change in the right direction. i would love to see my husband for more than a total of 30 days a year. which is what this past year has felt like. maybe a little more than 30 but i promise you we never had more than 50 days together. is this the secret to married life? frida kahlo and diego had their separate homes joined by a bridge. doubt it is. i love his lips and frequent hugs too much.


loving this weather with hopes to visit the flea markets this weekend.

42.

i watched New York I love you last night and liked it better than Paris, Je T'aime. Maybe it's because i have not seen PJT in a while and NYilu is fresh in my head. i felt like i could relate better to NYilu. my favorites were Ethan Hawke talking to lady on the corner, the couple outside the bar talking as strangers and the old couple walking to the beach.

41.

my favorite celebrity crushes lately.

40.

went through the closet today in an attempt to minimize stuff i am taking in the move to florida. i currently have 22 v-neck t shirts. theyre my absolute favorite thing to wear because i am a boring dresser.

39.

that's me and Tham.

so it's almost 100% that i will be in Jacksonville FL from June01-Sept01. i can not wait.

38.

my new shirt came in the mail today. the shirt is heather gray and the font +image are green.

37.

i found a few iphone apps that give the pics i take a film kind of feel and i love it! here is butterscotch. kyle has had him since birth. and here is tham. my friend and co-worker who i love to make laugh.

36.

i am only 23 but man do i feel fucking old. this should not be.

35.

glad we spoke via texts today. i thought our friendship was a goner.

34.

we're getting a puppy boston terrier and his name will be Cooper. i just want a year off to do nothing and get it all out of my system. completely unrealistic.

33.

Oh hello Cayetano Rivera Ordonez. Can we have a staring contest? Mmm!

32.

examing that photo of teeth and i am realizing that teeth are fucking weird looking.

31.

today i thought about how lonely i might feel when i am older and the songs i listen to from now and years ago will bring memories that are long gone. just because they aren't the songs played regularly on the radio and the only constant is that they are my memories. the thought of my death gives me the creeps. i know i said i have faith in something, but i have no clue where i go when i die. i can't even convince myself of that.

30.

i get my bottom wisdom teeth out on Friday. i will be sitting at home with my chipmunk cheeks this wednesday. i read a book with an awful ending. i should have known. i've gotta start finding books to read that are more for my age.

29.

just purchased these at zappos.com. i've dressed more girly but my shoes remain boyish. i can't help myself. i also got some black flats but i love these more.

28.

also found an old type writer, two accordians, more polaroid cams, etc. i should look for antique shops around here. with all the old people, i'm sure to find a lot of good things.

27.

polaroid 250 land camera. my new baby.

26.

hey, your shoes were out of this world.

25.

not for you anymore.
for me.

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i finished watching paper heart tonight. my favorite thing about movies is i'm allowed to fall in love every single time with the characters, with soundtracks, with locations. i guess that's where i get my want for romance so much? i guess that's why it has consumed my thoughts a lot lately. i wish i were more creative. this afternoon i had a strong urge to paint a portrait and then i ignored it. i like faces. i couldnt tell you why. i just do. and i dont know why i painted them so much years ago. i dont know why i can't anymore. i hope the desire hits again.

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i used to joke that every time i heard band of horses' Ben Bridwell sing i always imagined him in all white with flowy curls of hair and angelic girls floating by his side when he sang. such a weird imagination, i know.