today i thought about how lonely i might feel when i am older and the songs i listen to from now and years ago will bring memories that are long gone. just because they aren't the songs played regularly on the radio and the only constant is that they are my memories. the thought of my death gives me the creeps. i know i said i have faith in something, but i have no clue where i go when i die. i can't even convince myself of that.
reincarnation is pretty much the only thing i have faith in anymore. a higher power? maybe, but not some celestial spirit with a beard. more like, vibrations from the ground.
ReplyDeletedeath isn't so freaky. it's the dying part. but even then, i don't think it has to be lonely or sad. so long as you know you tried to live your life to the fullest.
i've always said i wanted to be reincarnated into a humpback whale. i can't imagine it being a person w/a beard either.
ReplyDeletei honestly think it's just energy...but the greediness in me doesnt want to die just b/c i want to see it all. i want to know what happens 150yrs from now. i dont want to think that i'll never see you or other loved ones again.